Sarah Brogdon ENGL1101 Angela Willis 3 September 2023 Narrative Essay My Child i

Sarah Brogdon
ENGL1101
Angela Willis
3 September 2023
Narrative Essay
My Child is My Life
The day I found out I was pregnant; I knew my life would be changed forever. It was the day my childhood ended. Every decision I made would not only affect me, but also affect my unborn child. A million thoughts ran through my head. How would I, at 16 years old, how can I provide for a baby? I did not have much help. My husband was barely around, my son’s grandmother was always working, and my father left me when I was only five years old. I felt like I was on my own. I knew I needed to make my life better, it was not just going to be me anymore. This was going to be my new life. I made the decision not to prevent this pregnancy from happening, and I will do whatever I need to take care of my son. I needed to focus on graduating so I could get not just a job but a career. After all the thoughts went through my head, I remember calling my mom telling her I was not feeling good, and I was getting sick in the morning. She told me that I needed to go to the doctor because I had already had a miscarriage before when I was fifteen years old. That was the hardest thing I had to go through. I promised myself I would take care of myself better so it would not happen again. I went to the doctor, I took the test, and it came back positive. All my emotions hit at one time. There was no more going out with friends, going to parties doing whatever I wanted to do when I wanted to do it. I told my husband, and he was like are you sure? I said yes, we are going to have a baby, the due date is November 1998. My husband was excited but could not break the addiction he had so he was not around much for me during the pregnancy. He thought his friends and his drugs were more important, so I had to do what was going to be best for me and my baby, so I left. For nine straight months I went to school and worked wherever I could just so I had money to buy things my baby is going to need and a place for us to live since it was just me and my baby. I struggled a lot with being overwhelmed and tired with school and work on top of being pregnant. I just kept thinking I did this. I made the decision to get pregnant. I needed to push through this. It was going to be worth it in the end. Towards the end I was scared, and I needed my husband, so he was there then something happened. My son’s heartbeat dropped low, and they had to rush me back for a c-section. I was so scared I was going to lose another child. At 10:10 P.M on November 10,1998 my son was finally here. I was so excited it was real to me that it is up to me to make sure my son is safe and taken care of and make sure he has his best life. When I looked into his blue eyes, I knew then he was what I needed to change my life around and do better not only for me but for my son. He needed me to be better than I used to be. When he was one month old, I graduated high school. I am a CNA now helping take care of people. That is something I enjoy doing and I know he is happy with me living my life as his mom